Happy Birthday, Bubs!

We can't have it all, but we can have most of it.
Happy birthday, bubs. To start- I love you. It seems like not so long ago, we reconnected on your birthday and here we are, celebrating it together- with a pup and a child on the way. You were and will always be my greatest dream come true, which is sappy I know. But it is true for me. Walking down the aisle to you, waking up to you, fighting with you and loving you are all my greatest honors. You are my pillar and my lighthouse. Thank you for being those things for me. I can never really thank you enough for proving me wrong- I am soft and I am meant for love, but only with you. You challenge me in ways that still feel unexpected. Married life is more than I could have ever expected it would be. I feel like I struck some sort of lottery. I get my best friend, every day, for the rest of my life?? I sometimes cannot fathom all the generosity and love you have shown me when I deserved it the least. But we are here. And here, we will remain. I would do absolutely anything for you. I hope you know that.

When we first began to date, it was hard not to feel like I was in the middle of the world's most romantic tale. I still feel that way, even now. From our world travels, getting lost, and always laughing together-- you are my partner in it all. Even on the hard days, on the days we press each other's buttons, on days I was sure you'd never come back, I always want to be here. I broke this summer, wide open, and I only tell you this to tell you that I would choose you every time, I would choose this life because I know it is meant to be ours. The hard times only soldify how I feel about you. Every hard time brings me closer to you. Every hard time challenges me, and makes me want you. Always. That will never change. You always joke that an old dog can't learn new tricks, but I see the ways you constantly improve yourself and work to be better. You inspire me in that way. I always want to be the best thing for you like you are absolutely the best thing for me. There has never, ever been a doubt in my mind that I wanted to work hard to be your person, to live up to the person I think you deserve and I will very happily spend the rest of my life doing just that.

Elizabeth Gilbert writes that our soul mates are supposed to break us and leave but I don't know that this is true. I don't know if I even believe in soul mates but I do believe in you. I believe you have broken me wide open, but you never left, you stayed. I will always stay here with you. Things got hard, but we made it. We broke, but we broke together, we grew together, and I firmly believe we are going to spend the rest of our lives doing just that. Happy birthday to the father of my child, the love of my life and my best friend. I wake up every day next to you and I get to know I am just where I am supposed to be. I stand next to you now, having been tested ten times over and willing to be tested a thousand more. I will never give up on you, you excite me, you make my life a beautiful place to be. I love you so much, Theo. I always will. Thank you for letting me on this journey with you. You are wonderful, kind, intelligent, charming, witty, and everything I could ever, ever want. Thank you for existing. I love you, again. I love you, always.

We can't have it all, but we can have most of it.
Pack your bags, we are going to PARIS.
You, me and four of your closet mates.
We'll be taking the train there
We'll be there all weekend.
And yes, Buvette is happening.
But also, SO MUCH MORE
You and I are staying here.
And we have some fun activites planned!
- Arrive in Paris, chill out.
-Probably bang, let's be real
-Head out with Stu and see some nighttime sights!
-Meet Mokash and have a private dinner for us & mates.
- Bang again?
- Meet up with Eleonora who will let us tour the markets
-We will have our lunch with Eleonora, who teaches us how to preapre local French cuisine!
-We can enjoy the day as we see fit but you and I will head back to our place...
-And get an IN room couples massage, so you can get that massage you got me!
-Then we will be dining here
-Then finishing the night here
-We will wake up and head over to Buvette for a post birthday brunch
-Your friends will be leaving now....
-But you and I will spend one last night here together
-We will eat here
-And probably, well, FUCK! Heh. Love you, baby.